July 8, 2009

• So much to do so little time

  It always feels like that anyway. I have your normal BORING mundane house chores to do. I have to enlist brat child in to do her chores so mine can be completed in a timely manner. I am letting her sleep. I got up at 8:30 this morning. I am up dressed and ready to get on with it. I have vegged a bit online here and there and now back here again. So I am cleaning house today. I have yet to decide whether I will play music or watch episodes of my Scrubs Season 5 i got from netflix between loads etc. May do both. Listen to music while cleaning and then watch my episodes while machines are doing the work part of my work.

  Our fourth sucked. On lots of levels. We totally were given the wrong time. When we called to confirm we either didn't get an answer or got brushed off. We assumed that it would start at normal time at 6pm which is the time it usually starts. We had been asked to bring a few things which we happily did. Only to discover once we got there that the BBQ had taken place at 2pm. No one realized we didn't know. Ok whatever. Still had the 3rd wheel feeling but to be honest I assumed it was me. Hubby and I are fairly shy around larger crowds. We had made Nina wait for dinner at the BBQ. I was annoyed to have funded basically over $60 worth food for someone else to enjoy but lesson learned. Anyway we started to relax and enjoy ourselves and a group of guys who happened to be black came out of no where yelling at some of our party guests about whites on their turf. Well that didn't go over well and since our friends have lived there 10 yrs it obviously wasn't anyones turf. I suspected they were on something. They were looking for a fight. Well 4 on 1 is never a fair fight. They were attacking anyone in their way any age. Immdiately we got Nina out of there. They ended up sending several of our people to the hospital. The cops never bothered even looking for them so no arrests were even made. I personally think it was a planned event. There were more then 20 in their group. They were yanking scooters from little kids to use as weapons. Our hosts were just begging them to move on we just wanted to have a good time. Well they didn't listen. All hell broke loose. It was a racail thing for them. Which makes it very hard mentally for us to not feel like it was a racail thing. Especailly since every violent crime against us has been random (as in we had never met any of them before) and the culprits happened to be black. How do you teach your kid to not be afraid of them when not once but twice they have threatened to take her daddy away from her because he was a white boy. I would apologize for being white if i had any control over that.  Calling 911 in this town is a joke. It literally just rang. It amazed me at how many ppl did not bother calling until someone they knew got hurt. That ended our festivities. And I had to come home and cook.

  We made the best of it came home and I made hotdogs which we then had an outdoor picnic and watched everyone's fireworks go off. Our friends that got hurt will all be fine eventually. The guy that got hurt worse was trying to keep the peace. He didn't even come out fighting he came out saying let's calm down and just enjoy the fourth.

  We decided that we won't be joining anyone else on fourth. We decided we will just do our own thing. No more trying to get out to have a good time. If Nina had gotten hurt I would have had only myself to blame. I also decided I could of wasted the money right here at home and gotten more out of it. I hate to feel that way but I do. I hate that my little girl is now afraid to walk down the street because a black family lives there. I told her that the color of their skin had nothing to do with thier behaviors but she heard as well as we all did. We were attacked becuz we were white. I don't and didn't understand the anger behind their attack. Maybe there was something behind the scenes. I told her that I still have friends of every color that I hold very near and dear. That they are still my friends despite what those idiots did. I tried to tell her that idiots come in every color. I hope she will not be afraid of people because of thier skin color. It is hard when it is such senseless violence like this. It is harder when ppl make comments like this was a good town until they moved in...referring to the black people. I admit this used to be prodominantly a white neighborhood. But over the last 10 years our small community turned into a small town. People tend to want a quieter life which is what our little town has to offer. It doesn't matter the color of our skin we all deserve a peaceful life. But enough about that.

  Nina has yet (wait for it) another (wait for it) trip to ... SEATHELL tomorrow. Yay us! Its only a one day trip where I thought I would be a 3 day trip but was able to get somethings moved around a bit. She gets the lovely halo off  in 15 days!!!! I tease her daily that in 15 days I get to beat her.. I am not sure she is so sure I am teasing though lol. I plan to let her have a sleep over friday night. I know what am I thinking?? Might even let it go all weekend. It's just her and her bff.

  Nina made it to 5th grade! She is in the best teacher's class. He asked for her. Said he was tired of feeling like she being lost in the cracks. Hopefully this will be good for her. May help with behaviors too. Guy teachers always scared me to much to be bad in class lol. We are doing some summer homeschool this summer. Our goal is to work 2-3 hours a day, which includes homework. Thanks to my uhmazing (as my neice would say) sisters!

  Well I guess I should get to work the house won't clean itself. I know I have waited and it just gets worse hehehehe.

  On a sidenote I hope I didn't offend anyone out there. However this is my blog and I have to put some things down that I don't always like. I truly don't believe that our skin color or theirs had anything to do with anything. They were probably just drugged out kids looking for trouble, its not their fault or ours that we all had diff. skin color. At least thats what I told Nina.

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