January 3, 2010
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Happy New Year!
Happy belated new year. Been fairly busy here getting ready for school to start. Books were nearly $400 for the quarter and I have to say it hurt quite a bit. It is going to be a very long month but if and when we make it through I will be able to get all caught up. It means paying the bare minimum for the month but then that has sadly become more then common place lately.
I made it through my orientation class at school with no problems. We were given a writing assignment which is not due until the 8th but as usual for me I am already done and thinking of rewriting it. I am resisting the urge to rewrite it as I am sure I will have enough to occupy me as of tomorrow. There may be a 30 day hold on all my funds from school except my pell grant. I am really hoping that there isn't but I am planning for it in case there is. This is why I had to pay for my books up front and all the supplies I needed. I bought one (the only one available) used book which saved me $45. I have my hubby's old backpack that he no longer uses so I was able to share there and I have enough presentable clothes to get by. All I really need is a decent coat and an umbrella. I need shoes but I get those through my doctor and I am just waiting for them to come in, which should be any day now.
The first quarter is always the hardest. I just have to stay determined. Which for me is not a problem. I do need to learn not to stress the things I can not change. I am worried that my car will crap out. I am worried that I won't have enough money for gas for the month. I am worried that I will get sick or the kid will. I am worried that hubby will not be able to handle all the kid related appointments if I am not there. I am worried the kid won't allow me to study when I need to *she tends to think that I should only do things when she is not around/asleep, what this really means is that either her bedtime rolls back OR I barricade myself in the computer room with the door locked.*
So I am a bit on the stressed side but I usually obsess about everything. I am trying to not worry about all these things. I am having a hell of a time sleeping due to anxiety so tonight I plan to take my sleeping pill at 8. I must get rest tomorrow or I will forget something. I have my books and student ID. I really just need my financial aid check (pell at the least) and parking pass. It would totally suck to be towed while in class.
I also need to develop a routine so that I can have me time and family time and still get everything we must get done done.
I am jumping into this with my eyes wide open with BOTH FEET.
No room for failure.
I can do this.
I CAN do this.
I will do this.More later.Must go chow.
Comments (4)
Only room for success!!! You are my hero!!!!!!!! I want to go back to school
I would be a professional student if I could. Shhhh don't tell I miss
homework!!!!! Extremely proud of you!!!!!
I know you can do it but I know it is hard. I went back to school when my olderst daughter was little too. she was younger than Nina though. the older they are the harder it is. They are needier when they get older and you cannot just put them to bed when you want to study, ha ha!
For me going back to school it was well worth it financially and I was more marketable on the job market.
What classes are you taking right now?
I never did find you on facebook. Mine is under Anne King (annekingrn@aol.com)
Anne
Give it a little time. Things won't seem as stressful once you get into a regular school routine. I was totally stressed out returning to university a year ago. I was as old (or older than) some of my teachers (especially the lab assistants) and most of the student body. I was hyper stressed out about the exams, traffic, finding a parking place, being late for class, but once I knew what, how, and when to do things/study, it all fell into place. I have to go back to school again and I know I'm going to go through the same panic-mode I went through before... but I also know it gets better. You're going to be just fine.
Big hugs!
Btw, I got a parking ticket on my first day of classes for parking on the grass (with about 20 other cars that ended up with tickets, too). The end of that year, I was bold enough (and pissed enough) to park in a faculty slot because I couldn't find a place to park. I was going to be late for a "locked door" anatomy and physiology 2 exam (they lock you out if you're late, giving you an automatic fail). I figured my exam took priority over a ticket, so I took the chance. Apparently, I was a total rebel (according to my friends). lol Lucked out, too! Returned to my ticket-less car after I aced my exam. lol
Hope the day went well! You can do this. There may be struggles and hardships along the way, but just take each day as it comes and when it's gone, let it go and move on to the next one. Things, hopefully, won't seem so overwhelming that way.
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