November 17, 2010
-
Gone off the deep end but not forgotten!
I still want an iPad. School is going pretty good. I ended up dropping a classs. Chemistry to be more specific. I am retaking it next term with a diff instructor. Been keeping a digidiary on my iPod. I'm spending way more time worrying about crap I can't control and I think it's wearing on me. We are also having some pretty significant financial issues with my ex quiting his job we are now approximately $350 short the last two mths. I have not brought it up becuz it doesnt change it and I'm determined to get through it. Last time I made mention of it I was accused of begging or asking for handouts. Let me make it clear that I am not I am merely venting frustrations of it. It's hard to know we are working hard but unable to celebrate those joys in ways that we consider fun lol.
The quarter is ending in just short of two weeks. At this exact moment I have a solid A in my psychology and allied health classes. I just have a paper or presentation and final exam in both and I'm done for the term. At last check Hubby has a B in math and English B+ and a C+ in his college success class. He will be fine I just hope he don't let the pressure get him down in the mean time!
I am still not speaking with my mother. She spoke briefly with me long enough to throw a few dollars in
My face from when Nina was in the hospital that she insisted on sending me. And to compare me to my sister Ammie ( if u have read long u kno who I mean). Anyway it pissed me off even more when she started Texting Nina and drag her into the discussion! So anyway long story short I told her not to drag Nina into it and that she'd get her precious money back in Jan then she can write me off the rest of the way. I so tired of the stupid games. Keeping in mind this all started becuz I didn't want to argue with her over a disagreement in a memory from when we were kids.
So I must have really done it good becuz none of my family has spoken to me in a couple months. Sometimes ( more than I admit) it really bothers me! I feel alone and deeply saddened. If it wasn't for my aunt calling about once a month I would probably be depressed all the time. It bothers me to have this need for family that I have. So I'm seeking counseling. I am actually going to do family counseling with Nina but I think I am also going to do counseling by myself.
Not sure it's gonna make a diff but worth a shot.
Anyway I can't wait till December 3rd when our month off starts! Also can't wait for winter term to start cuz we can get caught up again! I'm buying a treadmill and Hubby wants to get an Exercycle! Our news years resolution is to get fit and ear better! I want to loose 75lbs by this time next yr!
We will see!
How's life on your side of the screen?
Comments (3)
Sorry for the financial woes, that sucks! (Been there, done that... could probably write a book about it.) Not having the money to do fun stuff every now and then is bad enough, but when you're short just meeting necessities... well... preaching to the choir, ain't I?
I don't know how adults go back to school. I really don't. I couldn't. School left such an awful taste in my mouth, it pretty much ruined me from ever wanting to step foot in any classroom ever again. Sad, eh?
Families. Argh. I'm glad that my immediate family is all good. We don't fight or any of that sorta thing. The extended fam? That's a whole 'nother ball game. I don't understand the mentally of family infighting. I really don't. There are plenty of other people to fight with out in the world, why battle with those that are supposed to be closest to you? Makes no sense to me!
Ipads are basically the ginormous Ipod touch..
@warweasel - yeah to me either. I just refused to argue with her anymore. That was what started this crap and everytime she tries to start it i shut her down. i have better things to do than argue with someone especially her who is 2000+ miles away over the phone. its all good though at least shes not next door!
Comments are closed.