June 18, 2011

• Day 3: Your first love

  Since I got off track I will do this one early and therefore be on track again. For how long is the question though ?? That remains to be seen.

   

  Day 3: Your first love

   I think I thought I was in love a lot of times. But I really don't think I was ever in love with the person just the fact of being in love. So in all honesty I can say the my husband was and is my first true love. Sure I have been with other men, after all my daughter is proof of that. Even with her father I think I was in love with the idea of being loved unconditionally and that just was not him. The first man I ever kissed on the lips is believe it or not my hubby. He makes me laugh every day, and he is always here when I need to yell or cry or just need him. I can see myself with him forever, in fact I can't see my life without him. That to me is what real love is.

  Sure I had a crush on a guy named Ryan Slaughter in 6th grade who ended up just being my best friend at the time.  Of course I thought I loved my daughter's father but every day I can remember being afraid to say anything that might set him off. I have fondness for her father, that can not really be considered love, but only because he gave me her and i love her. Perhaps she is my first love.  I had to learn to love myself, which sounds like such a cliche, before I was able to really find my first true love. 

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