Doesn't seem like it much anymore. That's ok I know you all understand.
Here's where I stand so far.
CLASS -- GRADE AS OF NOW
ENGLISH -- A+
MATH -- OUT OF 40 POSSIBLE POINTS I HAVE 39.25 WHICH I ASSUME IS AN A
COLL SUCCESS COURSE -- A+

I HAVE AS OF NOW GOTTEN AN A ON EVERY ASSIGNMENT. EVERY PAPER. EVERY QUIZ. I GOT A B ON A PRACTICE TEST (TAKEN ONLINE) **opps forgot about caps lol** but i get to take it as many times as I want and that was my first try. not bad but i know i can do better.

VERY happy it is a 3 day weekend!!! I have set one whole day aside for SLEEP! I am all caught up on homework. In fact I just need to study a bit each day but not actually do homework because ITS DONE! I am very proud of myself. I remember homework was a hard thing for me. But now there really is no reason to not do it. If i am struggling then I have access to FREE tutors at school.
I have some new not to mention VERY cute pics of mr rudy... minus the demon who tries to escape in every pic (his eyes glow). I think I am gonna get a decent digital camera but don't want to spend a lot. Any suggestions?

Anyway pics have to wait till friday or saturday. It is now time to play with hubby's Wii Wii (hehehe) like every night before bed. Its my Wii to but the other way is more fun to say. lol.

Off i go. School kids have bedtimes ya kno!
I am in bed by 11p every night!

TO THE LEFT (OR ABOVE DEPENDING ON YOUR VEIW) IS OF HUBBYS BDAY TONIGHT. HE HAD A LOT OF FUN WITH THE KIDS. I ENJOYED WATCHING THEM JUST HAVE A GOOD TIME PLAYING BOWLING ON THE WII.

Ok so as you can imagine the first week was very stressful but I now can locate EVERY class and have not even been late once! got close once or I thought then as i rushed in and sat down I was informed by the teeny-bopper behind me I had 10 more minutes. Sheesh!
I am the oldest in some of my classes. I am about the same age as a couple instructors. My classes have been good so far. My goodness I didn't realize how much I had forgotten math wise, it is coming back fairly quickly though. I have passed my first test but it was a can you tell me how to reach me outside of class kind of quiz. I have an actual math quiz that involves math monday. I know I can pass it (i have studied enough) but I find myself making stupid errors.
I aced my first paper for my college readiness class got the highest grade in the class. TAKE THAT TEENY BOPPERS lol.
I am enjoying myself but yes I have to say the balance between Nina and school can be trying. Hubby is awesome he has been totally supportive and redirects nina when he can. He is usually successful but she still sneaks by. I moved my homework desk into the front room which makes it harder for her to sneak up on me. Next week we learn about integers in math. Never have learned those guess its never to late. Nothing worse then your 11 yr old kid saying "geez mom your math is sooo easy" I think i popped back with "im gonna show you easy if you don't let me finish" she laughed (prob cuz she knew i was full of it) and left me alone.
BUT so far I have not missed a single day. Friday was a go to math if you needed help but skip if you don't. I didn't need the help so I didn't go but it did not count against me. I was going to go but then I took the in book test and only missed 3 but was able to identify exactly what i had done wrong. I just need to check my answers before i declare myself done. We do not take our math tests in class so I have to stay after and go to the math lab for all tests and some quizzes.

THANK YOU ALLL for the words of support.

I CAN AND AM DOING THIS!

The nursing program has asked me to do a show and tell on my trach, I think I am gonna do it. I need to put myself out there so people can know me for me and not as "that chick with that thing in her neck".
would much rather be known as "that chick with the shrinking ass" but that too will come in time. I force myself to park as far away as I can from my classes. I also do NOT allow myself to take elevators. All I have to do now is get myself back in the habit of having breakfast at home and having a SMALL snack at school and I should be dropping the weight again. I had lost nearly 40 lbs since Nov. But I think i am back up 5lbs.

Rudy is missing me terribly hubby said. But he is adjusting.
last but definitely NOT least.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

I AM GLAD YOU LIKED YOUR BIRTHDAY SURPRISE!!!!!

HIS SURPRISE WAS HE GOT TO SPEND TIME WITH HIS SON, SOMETHING WE DON'T GET, I HAD TO BEG BUT I WANTED TO SURPRISE HIM SO IT WAS WORTH THE PAIN OF BEGGING LOL.

Happy belated new year. Been fairly busy here getting ready for school to start. Books were nearly $400 for the quarter and I have to say it hurt quite a bit. It is going to be a very long month but if and when we make it through I will be able to get all caught up. It means paying the bare minimum for the month but then that has sadly become more then common place lately.
I made it through my orientation class at school with no problems. We were given a writing assignment which is not due until the 8th but as usual for me I am already done and thinking of rewriting it. I am resisting the urge to rewrite it as I am sure I will have enough to occupy me as of tomorrow. There may be a 30 day hold on all my funds from school except my pell grant. I am really hoping that there isn't but I am planning for it in case there is. This is why I had to pay for my books up front and all the supplies I needed. I bought one (the only one available) used book which saved me $45. I have my hubby's old backpack that he no longer uses so I was able to share there and I have enough presentable clothes to get by. All I really need is a decent coat and an umbrella. I need shoes but I get those through my doctor and I am just waiting for them to come in, which should be any day now.
The first quarter is always the hardest. I just have to stay determined. Which for me is not a problem. I do need to learn not to stress the things I can not change. I am worried that my car will crap out. I am worried that I won't have enough money for gas for the month. I am worried that I will get sick or the kid will. I am worried that hubby will not be able to handle all the kid related appointments if I am not there. I am worried the kid won't allow me to study when I need to *she tends to think that I should only do things when she is not around/asleep, what this really means is that either her bedtime rolls back OR I barricade myself in the computer room with the door locked.*
So I am a bit on the stressed side but I usually obsess about everything. I am trying to not worry about all these things. I am having a hell of a time sleeping due to anxiety so tonight I plan to take my sleeping pill at 8. I must get rest tomorrow or I will forget something. I have my books and student ID. I really just need my financial aid check (pell at the least) and parking pass. It would totally suck to be towed while in class.
I also need to develop a routine so that I can have me time and family time and still get everything we must get done done.
I am jumping into this with my eyes wide open with BOTH FEET.
No room for failure.
I can do this.
I CAN do this.
I will do this.

More later.Must go chow.

Well I decided to get myself out of my funk I would try to play around with my background. I also helped hubby do his. He didn't decorate for the holidays though lol. Anyway what ya think???

Sniffles, Sneezes, Headaches and just blah all over.

It's official everyone in the house has a cold EVEN RUDY who btw seems on the mend.

I think Rudy might have a cold. He is eating normally and still going potty and drinking like he should but he is sneezing quite a bit. I read on ehow.com that it can last 2-3 wks. I get paid in 10 days. What can I do to make him feel better? He is still playing and running around but he is sneezy. Will it hurt him to wait 10 days? Can a vet do anything for him? He is up to date on everything but Rabies and has very little contact with outer pooches.

He is extra cuddly which i Like.
Any and ALL input is appreciated. I want my lil man to get better asap. He sneezes but isn't coughing that i can tell. Seems to be breathing fine I just want to keep him safe.
It started after we had a really cold snap for a couple days and then back to our normal gloomy gloom weather.

My goodness my lil guy is now 4.5 months old! He is like a puppy/food disposal. He knows lots of little tricks and learns SO FAST. He can do the following on command with or without a treat now! Sit Stay Laydown Shake He also retreives some toys by name. For example he was tugging on my pant leg the other day and I said "go get tugawar if you want to play" and he went and got his tug a war toy! He also likes to tease hubby with his bone. Its soo fun to watch him play. I will miss the mornings with him when I am in school! Speak (we have taught him to bark at the door to go potty we still have to cue him some but he is getting it pretty good.) Also when he mastered speak a little to well I taught him SHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! with my fingers to my lips and he sits quietly (but you can tell it kills him lol) When he came home he was less then 7 lbs Now he is almost 14! He has definately filled a huge gap in our lives. An added bonus is when hubby isn't havin a good day sezuire wise he will sit practically on him. He is an amazing little guy and im not just saying that everyone (except our jerk mail man who refuses to deliver mail if he is even visible to the outside (he doesn't bite except his toys in play)) says how awesome and smart he is. Below is a pic of him unfortunately it is from my cell phone.

The first pic is of the day he came home.

 This pic was taken over a month ago but cute all the same I call it

I SAID FETCH NOT SNACK!

Rudy got a new bone HE LOVES IT this is the same bone he teases dad with lol.

The last pic was taken a couple days ago IT IS MY FAVORITE so therefore it is called.

RUDY TO CUTIE!

Isn't that an awesome look! On facebook I put "What you looking at butthead?" underneath it  lol.

He keeps biting the side of his mouth that or his bone is to hard as i noticed what looked like blood spots on it? He has bit his lip before and caused it to bleed. I am taking him into the vet in 3 weeks to get him fixed and his rabies shot so I will talk to the vet about it then. I also think he MIGHT have mites in his ears yesterday he shook his head kinda funny. But only did it once or twice so maybe water in his ear from rollin around in the rain the dork. lol. Hubby says when NIna and I leave he cries at the door and won't let him out of sight until we are back. It's tough being loved that much lol.

Well I guess I just assumed that you all were telepathic or some other supernatural type powers lol.
So I will update more on my school thingy.
I have had a trach for more then 5 yrs now. As I was trached for the last time in May of 2003. Not long after my birthday.
I have searched for and other then when I managed apartments, which truth be known was a job that basically got pawned off on me at the time that I only took because no rent was a pretty appealing thing to me. When the owner sold he contracted that I would be kept on as part of their deal. He even admitted that I surprised him. It was an ok job but even then I knew it was not what I wanted to do the rest of my life. I have known even before then that I wanted to be a nurse. I have done the college thing before and well honestly talked myself out becoming anything more then medical secretary. I worried back then that I would be overwhelmed by the duties at home and then doing the same at work. Of course now I realize that it is an asset. I had some student loan issues to work out and have been striving a long time to get them done.
Well I got the final go ahead about mid November. I have some pre-reqs to do before I start the nursing program itself. I still have time to decide if I want to go RN or LPN I am leaning towards RN mainly because class wise it is really only a few more classes longer. The pay difference can be quite significant in our area. What I will likely do is the LPN course and then they offer an LPN to RN online course where you meet once a week in class for testing etc and you can work full time if you choose as an LPN.
The company that took care of Nina as a baby and we tried to get to care for her this year for school (the insurance and school refused to cover it) has already promised me a job when I graduate.

As for why I chose to go back to school it is really a last ditch effort at a better life. Obviously it isn't (a better life that is) going to come a knocking on my door. I think medically that kristeena is in an excellent place for me to devote time to me. I will still occasionally miss school for her but once hubby has his license it will be missin one day not 2.

I am getting very nervous the closer it gets though. I would be lying if I tried to say I wasn't slightly terrified of math lol. It has been 14 or 15 years since I sat in a math class with a real math text. When I went to school before I went to PIMA Medical Institute. Unfortunately for me and all my class mates the school went through 3 instructors in my 12 week course. No joke. Most of it was self taught. It was very hard to learn things without an instructor. I need that from a teacher.. to be taught that is.

So anyway I am currently less then 2 weeks from my Orientation Class that lasts ALL DAY LONG!!! I hope that the weather will hold out in order for me to attend. It would suck to loose out on a full credit due to stupid weather.
Well thats about it for now. Talk soon!

I think i have decided not to be is no longer an option.

IT IS MY TIME ~ TO BE!
Starting College
Jan 4th, 2010