Well kinda 62 hours or less. I'm good with less lol...

Baby still looks great. Dr thinks he weighs about 7lbs 1oz. Hubby and I have had a going bet regarding his weight. Just for bragging rights.
I said less than 8lbs but hubby says more than 8lbs. The technician is guessing about 7.5lbs at the most by delivery a week from tomorrow. But he admits that hubby isn't completely out of the race yet lol. We have agreed that an even 8lbs would make us both right / declare a tie.. Had I known I was actually a good chance of winning I would have bet something cool like dinner at Red Lobster lol.
Looks like it worked so I added a belly bump pic from today too lol.
In the beginning of my pregnancy I lost 18 lbs. i have gained that back but my Dr says technically I have really only gained 3lbs that is considered a gain since I am currently only 3lbs heavier than I started. i am very proud of myself! Especially since baby is doing so well.
Dr is 1000% sure baby is fine but I still have my previous experience to make me worry so to make me feel better they agreed today to have the NICU doctors in the room for my surgery. They will need to check for a cleft palette anyway but I just want them there to be safest as possible.
Well thats about it, gonna *try* to attach a pic of baby from todays scan if it works for me if not I guess one day i will not as lazy and get on the laptop lol.

Well the procedure to get baby to turn failed! Boohoo so we are officailly 9 days give or take a few hrs to delivery. Its schedule for noon on the 29th. However I am not thinking he is going to wait that long. I have been contracting off and on since about 745 tonight. Not terribly regular yet but seem like they are trying to be. We will see a pregnant woman's body tends to play tricks so who knows they could stop altogether or could just stay annoying vs overty painful, which luckily they are not to the take my breath away stage yet. I am still pretty sore from my version attempt so maybe im just a bit more sesnsitive. Baby seems happy still wiggly and such, but honestly not sure if that would matter since he is breech, not sure if nina stopped being wiggle butt before the actual pushing started, its been a while after all lol...

Crazy how I feel like I am starting over again, everything wil be different this time. I guess I am kind of starting over.
Well i will probably post again before he is born unless he comes on his time frame not mine

We officially have 19 days & 12 hrs until my scheduled c-section / induction. Baby is completely breech now. We go in on the 16th in order to hopefully convince this lil man with some external coaxing to turn around and head south. If we are unsuccessful we will be a c-section. I just want him here safely but if I can avoid major surgery that would be awesome! At the last ultrasound he was chewing on his toes and well like most men playing with his goods lol. I told hubby if he keeps playing with it it may fall off lol. It was funny to see that on camera the second the tech focused in (she was double checking he was in fact a boy cuz she was a new tech to us) and as soon as she said yup he's all boy his lil hand immediately covered his "thingy". So I thought it was funny. They estimated that he is 5 lbs 3 oz as of last Tuesday (8 days go). Hubby and I have a friendly wager i say he will be less than 8 hubby says more, the doctor thinks he will be exactly 8 (i think he's afraid to take sides lol). Hubby's son was almost 10 lbs. Nina was 8 lbs 4 oz but shhe was a 36 weeker (well 35 wk 6 days) and had way to much fluid build up due to her problems. One of the OB's that fills in every now & then, thinks more than nina at least.

Nina has had one of those weeks. In a weeks time she wins an award for respect at school. Though she never shows any at home I'm proud she does at school. We have had an ongoing hygiene issue with her. Everything from bathing to combing her hair. I find it all very frustrating. Mainly becuz I dont think she needs to give kids a reason to pick on her. So anyway I finally put my foot down, forcing her to shower tonight, at 13 shes to old to bathe anymore, and when she got out and i had to force her to comb her hair. After more than 15 mins of listening to her whimper and whine i offered to help. Absolutely not she was doing it herself. I suggested she do so in front of her bathroom mirror, 20 more minutes pass before she declares shes "done". Well it looked like she hadn't touched it so I made her sit on the floor in front of me and as I started to comb it (she has thick naturally curly hair) I kept noticing really thin spots. She chopped all her hair to about an eighth of an inch long from about the crown of her head down leaving gaps along the way. She cut out the tangles! Left literally enough to pull it back in her lil bun. I was appauled! Now I have to pay money I don't have to hopefully fix it so it don't look hideous! But becuz I don't have the cash she will have to go to school like that until I do. I never thought I would have to hid scissors from a nearly 14 yr old kid.

Hubby is still having small seizures despite not missing meds. He is maxed out on his meds as well and theres no other options he can try. He wants to look for work. While its no secret we need the income. I am afraid that he will have problems or get hurt at work. So I convinced him to wait at least till baby gets here because I can then upgrade his medical and get him into a neurologist. His seizures have changed and he is more prone to gran mal type. I want him to get the help he needs so he can live without the constant fear and worry hanging over his head or if theres nothing else that truly can be done then help in some other manner I can't think of. On the other hand, he has found a new fav show... 1000 ways to die. I am not sure I like it lol its gross lol.

Well other than growing new life not much going on with me. I mostly feel like I'm either at the OB office, on my way there, or having just left there, i have 19 days and a tad over 11 hrs left by now and I have 8 more appointments to go before I'm done lol. When I'm not there I am pretty much watching the clock tick by verrrry slowly.... Heart burn sucks though!

Well I guess this about wraps up the excitement that is my life. I missschool more than I thought, can't wait till April when I can go back

In 31 days or less I will have two perfect and hopefully happy children. Then my child bearing days will be over. I have made this oficial. I can't wait to hav my body back so at least the sleep I do get albeit limited will be more comfy! Hope everyone is well on your end of the internet.

Ever hear that saying, take a picture it'll last longer?    Well apparently some ppl actually think its ok... When at hubbys dr appt, we got the normal stares giggles etc.. These two teenaged girls whipped out their phone right in front of their mother and started taking my pic while laughing making comments I suppose I was to "whatever" to hear or understand, all i could think to say is "well i hope it lasts longer". I literally had to hold hubby back.... What is pathetic is that i am so used to ppl being rude that i don't know how to respond anymore so i didn't. Hubby wanted to react but they WERE kids and he would have gone to far. i just was shocked that they did it or maybe its the fact that their mother who was sitting right there with their younger brother said nothing... Not sure what the world is coming to when it seems no one teaches acceptance or tolerance anymore. Oh & for the record it didn't make me feel any better them taking my picture. Kind of dirty really. Oh well life goes on...

Xanga has an iPad app! This will make updating much easier! This pleases me greatly especially since it is FREE!!!!
School : well apparently the powers that be have decided i am unworthy of attending my college any longer. Due to the craptastic situations I found myself in last term which lead to the advisor they assigned to me advising me withdraw to avoid crewing up my 3.8 GPA. following their advice screwed me over and they suspended my fin aid. Left me with two options pay out of pocket or appeal. They denied my appeal said I could have asked family for help etc.. So now my only option is to transfer to another school, turns all my transferable credits (which the same advisor claimed all my credits would transfer) only about 1/2 aprox will transfer, as long as most of the trasferable credits are math i don't mind repeating some of the other stuff! I will however shed big tears if my statistics class does not transfer. But my plan is to not give up and enroll at least part time next term at the college in my new town as I had been commuting the 45 miles one way for classes. The baby should be about 5 or 6 weeks old by the time the new term starts so if I take most of my courses online it will work out great!

Speaking of baby...
Baby will be here in about 40 days! I have most of the key essentials that he needs but I would be lying if I said that things aren't tight. Luckily I am not one of those moms that insist on everything being brand new. I will only insist on two brand new items for safety reasons. That would be a breast pump and a car seat. Those items must be new so that I KNOW they have not been abused. His crib etc will probably be used. I did get him a basinet new but at $40 it was a steal! Gotta love walmart sometimes lol. I am going to try to attach a 4 D image of baby Damien.

Family related:
Another long lost cousin has found me on facebook. Kinda cool I guess, we never really met but its still cool. Nina and hubby are very excited about baby naturally. Hubby is sadly no longer in school. After yet more sezuire issues which effect his memory his school (ITT) would not allow him to take a medical leave leaving him the option of go anyway & fail miserably or drop out. If he failed he would not have been able to return anyway. They didn't understand that he couldn't remember who his instructors were much less what classes he was in (as in location). Epilepsy sucks! So this made hubby decide college is obviously not for him. He does great in classes until he has seizure activity. He has decided he is going to look for a dishwasher type job that he can do in the evenings or nights. I did ask him to wait until after baby comes to go to work since its looking like quite possibly this will end in c-section since baby is breech still. If he doesn't turn I will require a csection and will need his help for at least a few weeks after delivery. We are hopeful baby will turn but no promises. We also figured it would be easier to get work if he didn't have to open the interveiw with hey i need a week or so off at the end of Feb.
My mother has decided she hates the name Damien. It sounds to much like Demon... I replied that Satan was already taken so Damien was our next best choice. I am not sure I have ever shut her up faster lol. I was greatly amused by this .
Nina is doing very well in school this year. All her grades are up, she is either at or slightly above grade level. 2's & 3's ( if you r familiar with that grading system). However she is in full fledged drive me fucking insane TEEN mode. Some days I want to throttle her but I don't as I am sure my own hormones don't help :-/.
Well now to attempt to add the pic and post this. I am using the app so if it doesn't work I will blame the app lol. Hope all is well on your side of the screen! I even added a recent Rudy pic!

I just realized for the first time since I have been on Xanga that I did wish my friends here a Merry Xmas. Very bah humbugish of me but we didn't do much becuz we just didn't have it to do much with. Kiddo is 13 she coped ok. Still hoping to go back to school in the next term even though I have 67 days left until this lil bun in the oven is due. Due to some minor show stopping moments, I ended up having to drop my courses which meant I found myself on financial suspension. Of course I am appealing that and hope to hear today. I am by no means hopeful but others have told me they think I should be fine.. I try not to pay ppl to think it never seems to work out for me. If it does go through all of my courses will be ONLINE. So I will be home for baby time and duties anyway. I am also planning to go spring term for at least 10 credits (2 classes) also online. I will then take summer off and by fall be ready for full time again. I am considering changing my major to become a respitory therapist. The program is a bit shorter but best of all its local! Well I guess that's about it for this year... out with the old in with a better new! Hope everyone had a happy whatever it is that you celebrate! Good tidings to everyone for the new year! Oh the image I am adding is of 4d ultrasound of the very handsome baby Damien...

And I'm on my ipad so its gonna be short! Just wanted to wish everyone a very happy thanksgiving! I am beyond thankful this year for my friends, health, and my growing family! Baby is still doing well and the docs still insist everything is looking very good! Nina is doing very well in school and hearing better thanks to her new fancy hearing aids! I hope everyone had a great day and i will post new baby pics soon (ultrasound). We have about 13 weeks left till baby Damien is welcomed into the world!

This was taken when I was 17 wks 1 day! Nearly half baked baby boy!

Damien Lukas DeBois

DUE March 13th!

Dr said that everything looks great still and every thing look proportionate to where it should be.

I am still a skeptic, but not because I want him to be wrong but because I don't want to get my hopes up.

Next ultrasound Nov 11th so we should have a much clearer picture of whats going on.

It still feels like a dream, an amazing dream. If it is I don't wanna wake up!